Since this month started, seems like things were going fast. Lent arrived and then – boom! A week left of the month and I wonder where have I been? I mix up days, forget dates, here but absent. My mind drifting and sometimes shutting down. I’m staring but not really seeing. And right now, my body screams STOP!!!- but I cannot. There are things needed to be done and things I wanted done. I haven’t prepared a draft for my blog post this March. I haven’t picked up the book I was reading. I haven’t been sleeping at the designated time I wanted to, not getting enough hours of sleep. Seems like I’m running after time. Just like that, the days are marching past me.
I am overwhelmed as soon as I shifted my eyes away from God and focused on this world. I am downcast as soon as I turned my back to His Word and embraced the world.
Last night brought me so much consolation. His Word that is truly alive and active and accomplishes its purpose.
[Of David] Yahweh is my light and my salvation, whom should I fear? Yahweh is the fortress of my life, whom should I dread? When the wicked advance against me to eat me up, they, my opponents, my enemies, are the ones who stumble and fall. Though an army pitch camp against me, my heart will not fear, though war break out against me, my trust will never be shaken. One thing I ask of Yahweh, one thing I seek: to dwell in Yahweh’s house all the days of my life, to enjoy the sweetness of Yahweh, to seek out his temple. For he hides me away under his roof on the day of evil, he folds me in the recesses of his tent, sets me high on a rock.
Now my head is held high above the enemies who surround me; in his tent I will offer sacrifices of acclaim. I will sing, I will make music for Yahweh. Yahweh, hear my voice as I cry, pity me, answer me!
Of you my heart has said, ‘Seek his face!‘ Your face, Yahweh, I seek; do not turn away from me. Do not thrust aside your servant in anger, without you I am helpless. Never leave me, never forsake me, God, my Saviour. Though my father and mother forsake me, Yahweh will gather me up.
Yahweh, teach me your way, lead me on the path of integrity because of my enemies; do not abandon me to the will of my foes — false witnesses have risen against me, and are breathing out violence. This I believe: I shall see the goodness of Yahweh, in the land of the living. Put your hope in Yahweh, be strong, let your heart be bold, put your hope in Yahweh.
This morning, I received this verse from Psalm 27:14.
Now, I receive this short text about waiting on the Lord, to run in His pace and to trust in His timing.
The peace and joy that your heart and soul experience whenever you keep pace with God is so wonderful. I am currently going through and learning about this waiting – and it’s not something that you learn once and then graduate from it. Waiting on the Lord is a lifetime commitment, a moment-to-moment event and opportunity to glorify Him. I will never get tired of hearing God telling me to be patient and to wait for Him because I know only He can give me the best.
Whenever we are tired and hurt, our response often is to hide, to run away, to deny, to turn around, to be cast down. To feel hurt is okay, it makes us human, it evidently shows we have a heart and we can feel. It is good to feel – it is our check and balance in life. To feel tired, to feel offended, to feel hurt.
It is also good to know that every time we hurt, every time that we want to scream and ask ‘why?’, every time we feel there’s no way out and we’re pushed to the wall – it’s wonderful to know we have this hope, a real hope, the light at the end of the tunnel, we have God.
Jeremiah is one of the prophets I love reading about. Jeremiah lived through the horror of the exile and he saw God’s hand in the salvation of the Jews from exile. He saw how the people of Israel has disobeyed God and He saw God’s mercy towards them. He was a part of that twisted and disobedient generation yet He held firm to what he know about God. He is someone who knows God and therefore He understands God and He knows that no matter what, even when physically he’s tired and mentally he’s exhausted, Jeremiah still put his hope in the God he knows – the God of mercy and of love.
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The point in waiting is to enjoy
To love and worship God
In every act of your life
Including the waiting.
And in the waiting
Remember His nature
That He is the Giver of every perfect gift
That He desires to lavish you with such treasures
Treasures that are worth the wait
Solely because He is in them.
Rest in this:
He is going to give you
Exactly what you need
At exactly the time you need it.
That is reason to smile
That is reason to breathe easy
And rest in Him.
Let go of “when” and “if”
Because His way
Are so much higher than yours.
Beyond what you could ever fathom
Because He loves you
Oh, how He loves you.
And that is the point of your entire existence
To experience His presence
Inside every moment
Especially in the waiting.
– Josiah Schwartz
Peacefully waiting is the verb, but what do you call the waiting that is peaceful?
It’s something I’ve been enjoying for a few months now. I am surprised, at first, to find that I am no longer fretting or complaining about what is taking so long. The surprise turns into gratitude and of praises for our Lord for He has given me this sense of peace. It has been a long road of getting here, and I wouldn’t have gotten here if I did not acknowledge the fact that I NEED IT, ASKED FOR IT and SOUGHT AFTER IT. (Matthew 7:7-8)
The mind never ceases to ask questions, to provoke, to deceive, to reason out. The heart never ceases to yearn, to desire, to want, to feel. There were moments I wanted to just shut them up. Now, I welcome them with whatever they want to do, with the confidence that He has already provided the answer and these things I go through are just small bumps and are needed for me to draw closer to Him and to better understand and appreciate what He is going to do for me. The desire and the questions are still there, but a sense of calm patience has overtaken. If I have to put into words the feeling, it’s like being told, “Wait, my princess, the wait will be so worth it. For now, enjoy the gifts I am giving you.” And yes, there are so many blessings that might have been overshadowed if I have gotten what I have desired.
Truly, the Lord’s ways and plans are beyond anyone. (Isaiah 55:8-9). And His plans for me are full of hope and is beautiful. (Jeremiah 29:11). Nothing to fret but in all things to have the heart and wait for Him, to provide, to bless, to come. (Psalm 27:14). And these, I really love… Look at the birds of the sky, the lilies of the field, look around at how He has taken care of them (Matthew 6:25-34).
30 years… I’ve met frogs… No, I didn’t kiss them to see if they’d turn into my prince charming. I didn’t have to because they left even before I got hold of them. So now, I’m still waiting for prince charming to come sweep me off my feet.
Many times I think I’ve found him just to realize I was being delusional. Either we live in a different time zone that our feelings didn’t evolve at the same time or I’m just too good a princess to be his and he can’t take it. But they all taught me how to love, to hurt, to let go, to get back up, and to be patient. In each I’ve learned lessons I am taking with me as I search, wait and hope for my prince charming.
So, yes, out there are many frogs. You can try kissing each one to see which one turns out to be your prince, or you can just wait for the real prince to reveal himself. I’d prefer the latter. Jumping into the pond and picking out frogs just isn’t my thing. I’d rather sit on the side, dip my feet in the pond and see who comes around to sit beside me.
In all these, I have to stay open. Whether wandering in the woods, sitting beside a pond or singing to a well – stay open. Lightning could strike and turn a frog into a prince. Who knows? Or he might just be lingering around watching you while he rides on his white horse, the prince not the frog of course. Stay happy, live lovely and stay open. ♥