Why these words
Why these thoughts
Why such revelations
This mind has to hold
Why stir this heart
Why chosen apart
Why such emotions
Where do I start
What step to take
How far to go
Where forth I don’t know
This road I follow
Swayed by the wind
Lost in the spin
I falter and fall
Yet you gave it your all
Lean on the Wood
Rest on the Rock
Lay on Your feet
Saved by Your blood
© 05.09.2017 23:28
Because He lives;
Because He forgives;
Because He is God;
Because He is Almighty;
Because He saves;
Because He loves me.
What reasons do I have
Not to believe, not to trust?
Because there’s none like Jesus,
None like God,
Who will take all of me –
Even the broken, sinful part of me –
To embrace them all and love me.
© May 4, 2017
Since this month started, seems like things were going fast. Lent arrived and then – boom! A week left of the month and I wonder where have I been? I mix up days, forget dates, here but absent. My mind drifting and sometimes shutting down. I’m staring but not really seeing. And right now, my body screams STOP!!!- but I cannot. There are things needed to be done and things I wanted done. I haven’t prepared a draft for my blog post this March. I haven’t picked up the book I was reading. I haven’t been sleeping at the designated time I wanted to, not getting enough hours of sleep. Seems like I’m running after time. Just like that, the days are marching past me.
I am overwhelmed as soon as I shifted my eyes away from God and focused on this world. I am downcast as soon as I turned my back to His Word and embraced the world.
Last night brought me so much consolation. His Word that is truly alive and active and accomplishes its purpose.
[Of David] Yahweh is my light and my salvation, whom should I fear? Yahweh is the fortress of my life, whom should I dread? When the wicked advance against me to eat me up, they, my opponents, my enemies, are the ones who stumble and fall. Though an army pitch camp against me, my heart will not fear, though war break out against me, my trust will never be shaken. One thing I ask of Yahweh, one thing I seek: to dwell in Yahweh’s house all the days of my life, to enjoy the sweetness of Yahweh, to seek out his temple. For he hides me away under his roof on the day of evil, he folds me in the recesses of his tent, sets me high on a rock.
Now my head is held high above the enemies who surround me; in his tent I will offer sacrifices of acclaim. I will sing, I will make music for Yahweh. Yahweh, hear my voice as I cry, pity me, answer me!
Of you my heart has said, ‘Seek his face!‘ Your face, Yahweh, I seek; do not turn away from me. Do not thrust aside your servant in anger, without you I am helpless. Never leave me, never forsake me, God, my Saviour. Though my father and mother forsake me, Yahweh will gather me up.
Yahweh, teach me your way, lead me on the path of integrity because of my enemies; do not abandon me to the will of my foes — false witnesses have risen against me, and are breathing out violence. This I believe: I shall see the goodness of Yahweh, in the land of the living. Put your hope in Yahweh, be strong, let your heart be bold, put your hope in Yahweh.
I have seen something else under the sun: The race is not to the swift or the battle to the strong, nor does food come to the wise or wealth to the brilliant or favor to the learned; but time and chance happen to them all.
When we view life as a race, we have this tendency to compete and win at all cost, sometimes even forgetting our values and trampling on other people’s worth just to emerge as winners, successful or powerful people. God gave us a life to travel along with Him, to journey and enjoy each moment. When we race through life, we do not stop and smell flowers. That is contrary to what life is about. Learn to slow down, to enjoy each moment, to rest in His love and to trust in His purpose. Learn to trust the journey. ☺
Sometimes you just want to tell someone what has been happening, or write it down and hopefully someone will be interested to read it. But then again, nah! I don’t want to bore you with my life story. 😛
I’ve discovered Easter, I still walk in valleys at times, and desert on other times, yet I know very well my God is with me, always with me. And busy months followed Holy Week – Mission Sundays, weddings after weddings – but the most important event, I must say, would have to be the moment God told me that the hour has come and my salvation is nearer than thought of – this is in relation to the work I’m in for 12 years now. Few years back, I prayed hard for a decision I am trying to make and God gave me the word – to wait for harvest time. Just few months back, after being persecuted yet again in this job that I’m in, God gave me consoling words one after the other, day after day, capped off with the verse from Romans. So now I am looking forward to God’s fulfillment of this promise. 🙂
And I ask, whoever will come to read this, to also pray for me and for the next step I will be needing to make – to entrust my future to God. And if it is not too much to ask, kindly include us in your prayers so we can all make it to Krakow next year for the World Youth Day! 🙂 THANK YOU!
Listen to me, you descendants of Jacob, all the remnant of the people of Israel, you whom I have upheld since your birth, and have carried you since you were born. Even to your old age and gray hairs I am He, I am He who will sustain you. I have made you and I will carry you; I will sustain you and I will rescue you. (Isaiah 46:3-4)
I am in the valley, the ‘white space’ in my walk with the Lord – the space where you know He’s there but you just can’t see or hear Him. I feel abandoned, let down, disappointed, and yet I know He’s gotten me all secure and safe. It’s just that my heart struggle to accept some things and prefer to enjoy the hurt because the hurt is there but the promise unseen. Yet, His promise, His Word stands firm, it is the only thing that is eternal and lasting, the only truth in all these mess I am in. For the past days I have been praying, “Lord, please speak to me… please talk to me… please…” and like what I told a friend, it felt like an off-air signal on the radio, not even static. I would read His Word each morning to console me that all is not lost and that He is there, always there. I tried reading between the lines, of figuring out what’s going on, of looking for His will yet the more I try, the more I get side-tracked, lost and frustrated. As much as making sense, they don’t. So imagine my delight when I finally opened yesterday’s Faith Gateway devotional “When You Can’t Feel God“. And I know, He has opened the door I’ve been banging on for the past days to slip me this message. This white space necessitates me to walk by faith and not by sight. I clearly do not see any thing that has been promised, I witnessed it being taken away actually. Right now, clearly, His promise is the only thing I have, His Word, His faithfulness, Him – my God.
For we know that if the earthly tent we live in is destroyed, we have a building from God, an eternal house in heaven, not built by human hands.Meanwhile we groan, longing to be clothed instead with our heavenly dwelling, because when we are clothed, we will not be found naked. For while we are in this tent, we groan and are burdened, because we do not wish to be unclothed but to be clothed instead with our heavenly dwelling, so that what is mortal may be swallowed up by life. Now the one who has fashioned us for this very purpose is God, who has given us the Spirit as a deposit, guaranteeing what is to come.
Therefore we are always confident and know that as long as we are at home in the body we are away from the Lord. For we live by faith, not by sight. We are confident, I say, and would prefer to be away from the body and at home with the Lord. So we make it our goal to please him, whether we are at home in the body or away from it. (2 Corinthians 5:1-9)
My dear Father who loves giving surprises has began His work… and I’m still uncertain where this is leading. All I know and all I hold on to right now is the Word He gave me this morning from Ecclesiastes: “He has made everything beautiful in its time.” And He will make this circumstance I am in right now beautiful as well, in His time, in His perfect time. And knowing God, there is just no way I can fathom or even imagine what He can possibly do for me.
Sometimes I would find myself trying to figure it out, which will only frustrate me obviously. I went through hell yesterday feeling insecure, cheated, questioning and stupid. I thank God for surrounding me with discerning people who knows to say the right thing as I grapple for His Word the whole day yesterday. It was already evening when I finally see the word HOPE and TRUST which was staring at me all day long, which in my insecurities and questionings I failed to see.
The best thing for me to do right now, though it may not be the easiest, is to TRUST HIM WHOLLY and LEAN ON HIS UNDERSTANDING and HAND OVER THE PEN TO HIM (refills and all) for Him to write my story and BE PATIENT. Not a matter of “OR” but AND’s … I have to fulfill the four! Not easy… Yet possible. By prayer, with thanksgiving, possible. Please pray with me. Thank you.
To trust someone is to lovingly depend on him, paraphrasing what Father Luis Sierra mentioned to us last Wednesday. Trust is a big and heavy word, loving dependence on the other hand is a lovely, comforting word that gives me that warm fuzzy feel.
Dependence, trust, confidence, patience, FAITH – words closely-related to each other, interchangeable, huge words, words we know yet we struggle to understand and live out, words we often halfheartedly commit to.
One person, one name, revealed more than a word to me – Abraham.
Most of us know Abraham as the father of Faith. Yet not most of us understand why he is the father of faith. We think that his Continue reading
We all have them. And we all have different reasons why we cannot trust some people, some products, and some situations. What really surprised me is that as much as we praise, glorify, adore, exalt God, He is one being we have trust issues with. Some might acknowledge, some might feel appalled by the idea, some might deny – but just think about and reflect on it. When God tells us, ‘sell all your possessions’, we respond by saying ‘we do not have many possessions’ or ‘I do not own anything, they’re all rented and borrowed’ when in fact we have enough to sell on OLX and earn from it! When God tells us, ‘go and announce’, we respond by making reasons why we just cannot. When God tells us to ‘go forth and multiply’, we take out our calculators and bank accounts and blame poverty to population growth and you know, we’re just being prudent and practical.
Often these trust issues are masked by our want to be in control, our desire for comfort, the rational and practical reasons that we lay out there. Oh and how we make so much sense with our arguments! But unveiling that façade, deep in the heart of our reasons and arguments, it all boils down to that – we do not trust God enough that He will deliver for us, He will deliver us. I know I have not given God my absolute trust and surrender; that a part of me still holds back, too attached to this world. And I continually pray to God that He will work in me and work in my heart, because only He can change my stubborn heart, only He can accomplish and maintain that changed heart of mine.
So, “HOW CAN YOU NOT TRUST GOD?” Appalling? Dismaying? How do you feel when you know someone does not trust you? Why are we so afraid to trust an Almighty Being? Why do we feel we can and He cannot accomplish some things for us? Why cannot we absolutely give Him our trust? I leave you these questions to ponder on and may He show you your answers and your reality. I pray you will open your hearts to acknowledge them and decide in your heart that you will start to trust Him moment by moment.
Learn to trust the journey…