I go…

Why these words
Why these thoughts
Why such revelations
This mind has to hold
Why stir this heart
Why chosen apart
Why such emotions
Where do I start

What step to take
How far to go
Where forth I don’t know
This road I follow
Swayed by the wind
Lost in the spin
I falter and fall
Yet you gave it your all

Lean on the Wood
Rest on the Rock
Lay on Your feet
Saved by Your blood

© 05.09.2017 23:28

None

Because He lives;
Because He forgives;
Because He is God;
Because He is Almighty;
Because He saves;
Because He loves me.
What reasons do I have
Not to believe, not to trust?
None.
Because there’s none like Jesus,
None like God,
Who will take all of me –
Even the broken, sinful part of me –
To embrace them all and love me.

© May 4, 2017

Amate i Vostri Nemici

Love your enemies.

Simple.  Direct.  Crazy.  But, why should I?  How could I?

In theory, it’s already hard to postulate.  In practice, what more?  The world sees this as the craziest idea – a world that demands justice, revenge, vengeance sugar-coated into something we sometimes use as ‘I’m just teaching him a lesson’ or ‘He deserves it’.  Oh, how kind of us, teaching lessons, giving deserving presents!  And the world who loves gossips and dramas would be against a person who quietly accepts persecution and forgives – corny, boring, stupid.

“You have heard that it was said, ‘Eye for an eye, and tooth for tooth.’  But I tell you, do not resist an evil person.  If anyone slaps you on the right cheek, turn to them the other cheek also.  And if anyone wants to sue you and take your shirt, hand over your coat as well.  If anyone forces you to go one mile, go with them two miles.  Give to the one who asks you, and do not turn away from the one who wants to borrow from you.” Matthew 5:38 – 42

Personally, I struggle with this command.  It’s just too hard to comprehend and it goes against lessons the society has taught me growing up.  I look at a society that demands Continue reading

Just a word, sometimes two. But when it hits you, it penetrates through the walls you build to protect your self and filter the chaos around you. It breaks them down and opens a hole that it yearns to fill. It touches a nerve that sends signals to your brain that even when it tries to reject it cannot reject the truth. Because your Soul knows it’s true. And your Spirit affirms its truth. It awakens them. Love. Mercy. How I am forgiven and loved, that the Lord moved heaven and earth to save this wretched soul of mine. 

“If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.”

‭‭1 John‬ ‭1:9‬

“For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God—”

‭‭Ephesians‬ ‭2:8‬

“Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good. His love endures forever.”

‭‭Psalm‬ ‭136:1‬ 

I have seen something else under the sun: The race is not to the swift or the battle to the strong, nor does food come to the wise or wealth to the brilliant or favor to the learned; but time and chance happen to them all.

Ecclesiastes 9:11 

When we view life as a race, we have this tendency to compete and win at all cost, sometimes even forgetting our values and trampling on other people’s worth just to emerge as winners, successful or powerful people. God gave us a life to travel along with Him, to journey and enjoy each moment. When we race through life, we do not stop and smell flowers. That is contrary to what life is about. Learn to slow down, to enjoy each moment, to rest in His love and to trust in His purpose. Learn to trust the journey. ☺

But I will sing of your strength, in the morning I will sing of your love; for you are my fortress, my refuge in times of trouble.

Psalm 59:16

BLEST ARE THE MERCIFUL

BLEST ARE THE MERCIFUL

Truly, God, in His Mercy, takes care and provides for His flock.  For me to be able to join the recent World Youth Day in Krakow is a miracle in itself.  He has converted the ‘yes’ into a possibility.  I had my reservations going into this trip – with all the chaos going on in most parts of Europe, then as we were nearing our departure via Turkish Airlines, there was bombing in the airport followed by a failed coup less than a week before we leave.  The trials never stopped there but with the loving mercy of our Lord, He has went ahead and prepared a way for us.

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St. Stephen’s Cathedral, Litomerice, Czech Republic.

 Everything that comes into our lives is a moment of encounter with God.

From the homily by Fr. Bert during the Eucharistic celebration last July 25, 2016 at the St. Stephen’s Cathedral in Litomerice, Czech Republic.

It’s not only in the extravagant events or in the ‘fireworks display moment of our lives’ that we encounter God but also in the little moments and sometimes, for us, trivial events that He is there, nudging us, knocking in our hearts, presenting Himself to be recognized by our soul.  And it is easy to be distracted and to not see God in the midst of the noise and the activities, with the world presenting you with so much diversions, with sceneries and oh the potatoes. When we were reminded that Continue reading

He

He who loves me,
He who cares for me,
He who holds me in His hands,
He who never lets me go.

He who calls me,
He who chooses me,
He who keeps me under His wings,
He who steadies my heart.

He who disciplines me,
He who forgives me,
He whose mercy never fails,
He who never lets me fall.

He who strengthens me,
He who sustains me,
He who gives me His life,
He who is forever faithful.

He is my Dad,
He is my King,
He is my God,
To Him my heart sings.

©djklmnopi 11:32 10.22.2015

People can love you to the moon and back and you’d still get disappointed with them.  God loves you to the moon and beyond and He never disappoints.
09.22.15 ©djklmnopi

This Love

You
Can be my redemption
or my destruction.
And I
Might be your salvation
or a wrong inclination.
We
Can be an institution
or a twisted illusion.

Grab my hand
and we will try to see
where this road leads.
Don’t let go
even when it seems
the end is near.

You
Will be my affirmation
of this affection.
And I
Will be your declaration
of this devotion.
We
Will swim in our emotions
and drown in our passion.

Grab my hand
and we will try to see
where this road leads.
Don’t let go
even when it seems
the end is near.

This love
A revolution
They view
With aversion

©djklmnopi
08.06.15 11:32

He Will Make Everything Beautiful

My dear Father who loves giving surprises has began His work… and I’m still uncertain where this is leading.  All I know and all I hold on to right now is the Word He gave me this morning from Ecclesiastes: “He has made everything beautiful in its time.”  And He will make this circumstance I am in right now beautiful as well, in His time, in His perfect time.  And knowing God, there is just no way I can fathom or even imagine what He can possibly do for me.

Sometimes I would find myself trying to figure it out, which will only frustrate me obviously.  I went through hell yesterday feeling insecure, cheated, questioning and stupid.  I thank God for surrounding me with discerning people who knows to say the right thing as I grapple for His Word the whole day yesterday.  It was already evening when I finally see the word HOPE and TRUST which was staring at me all day long, which in my insecurities and questionings I failed to see.

The best thing for me to do right now, though it may not be the easiest, is to TRUST HIM WHOLLY and LEAN ON HIS UNDERSTANDING and HAND OVER THE PEN TO HIM (refills and all) for Him to write my story and BE PATIENT.  Not a matter of “OR” but AND’s … I have to fulfill the four!  Not easy… Yet possible.  By prayer, with thanksgiving, possible.  Please pray with me.  Thank you.

I See

In praising I see
Beauty beyond compare
In thanking I see
Joy enough to share
In praying I see
Calm so resolute
In loving I see
Power that’s absolute

© djklmnopi 12.09.14 13:04

Storm

In the silence of the morning
Staring out my window
Sun shining down the pavement
Too calm for my own enjoyment

A knock shook me out of my daze
Walking to the front door
Something inside me twist in pain
Why did it feel it’s gonna rain

I run against the wind
Rain against my face
Reaching out to you
Calling out your name

Inside folded primly like a napkin
Words staring back at me
The sun turned black I couldn’t see
How can you leave, how can this be

Pushed against the wall in my bedroom
I gasped for air to breathe
Just last night you said we’ll be forever
What changed your mind to up and leave

I run against the wind
Rain against my face
Reaching out to you
Calling out your name

This whirlwind romance I do not understand
I fell too quickly now I’m dropped like a bomb
​You with your perfect smile left like a perfect storm
Now I’m drenched and clueless, where did I go wrong

I run against the wind
Rain against my face
Reaching out to you
Calling out your name

©djklmnopi 12.04.14 15:06

Hurt? Hope.

Whenever we are tired and hurt, our response often is to hide, to run away, to deny, to turn around, to be cast down.  To feel hurt is okay, it makes us human, it evidently shows we have a heart and we can feel.  It is good to feel – it is our check and balance in life.  To feel tired, to feel offended, to feel hurt.

It is also good to know that every time we hurt, every time that we want to scream and ask ‘why?’, every time we feel there’s no way out and we’re pushed to the wall – it’s wonderful to know we have this hope, a real hope, the light at the end of the tunnel, we have God.

Jeremiah is one of the prophets I love reading about.  Jeremiah lived through the horror of the exile and he saw God’s hand in the salvation of the Jews from exile.  He saw how the people of Israel has disobeyed God and He saw God’s mercy towards them.  He was a part of that twisted and disobedient generation yet He held firm to what he know about God.  He is someone who knows God and therefore He understands God and He knows that no matter what, even when physically he’s tired and mentally he’s exhausted, Jeremiah still put his hope in the God he knows – the God of mercy and of love.

We may go through deep waters, we may be exhausted with life’s problems, Continue reading

Pity and Love

I witnessed God this morning, along a major road in the metro. A guy helped an old man cross the big street. The old man has his one foot wrapped in cloths and a plastic. After crossing, the guy sat the old man by the bus stop then proceeded to get something from his backpack. He produced the crackers he had inside and gave it to the old man before going along his way.

It made my day, to see an angel, to witness Jesus in the metro, in the rush of cars and commuters, this scene was highlighted to me.

And I realize, we all feel pity. It’s our emotional response to situations we encounter wherein we find ourselves better off than the other. Pity, for me, is just that – an emotional response and often we leave it at that. It is LOVE that drives pity to do something other than feel sorry. It is Love that gives the push to act, to do something about it.

Thank You for this revelation. ❤️

My Heart Sings

Perfeclty Flawed © 08.10.13

There’s a song that my heart is singing
A song that gives my life meaning
Shouts of joy so overwhelming
Praises I raise to the Almighty Being

Once in darkness I was wandering
Lost, confused, kept on stumbling
Caught on dead ends and cliff-hangings
Uncertain future that keeps evaporating

A voice so still, I heard it calling
Red droplets from above keep falling
A light from faint to bright keeps glowing
My feet, towards it, start moving

Sunshine never felt so inviting
Flowers never smelled as pleasing
Hope never been solid and enduring
‘Til that fateful day my Saviour caught me

So my heart will keep rejoicing
Until the day of my Saviour’s coming
I will bask in the light of His mercy
And of His passion, of His love for me.

02.06.14 09:35 ©djklmnopi

Balance and Priorities

How do you tell which one should be on top of your priority list?  I am seriously asking, just, how do you decide?  What considerations do you make to know which one should be first?

I always go for my gut feel or indulge myself to what I want, which I know isn’t the best thing to do, cos often, what I want isn’t what I need to do.  I want to sleep but I need to finish a work, for example… what I’d do – I’d sleep! ((: I’m sure I’ll get enough time for work, I do not have enough time for sleep.  My reasoning!

It took me quite a while to learn to ask the right questions and to weigh stuff so I can prioritise well.  Not rightly or correctly because there isn’t a right or correct way, in my opinion, on how priorities should be set.  We are a diverse set of people, we have different needs, different wants, different sets of thinking.  But whenever I am really caught in a dilemma and the Continue reading

Give your hearts, but not into each other’s keeping…

Give your hearts, but not into each other’s keeping. For only the hand of Life can contain your hearts. And stand together, yet not too near together. For the pillars of the temple stand apart, and the oak tree and the cypress grow not in each other’s shadow.
~ Khalil Gibran