March-ing by

Since this month started, seems like things were going fast.  Lent arrived and then – boom!  A week left of the month and I wonder where have I been?  I mix up days, forget dates, here but absent.  My mind drifting and sometimes shutting down.  I’m staring but not really seeing.  And right now, my body screams STOP!!!- but I cannot.  There are things needed to be done and things I wanted done.  I haven’t prepared a draft for my blog post this March.  I haven’t picked up the book I was reading.  I haven’t been sleeping at the designated time I wanted to, not getting enough hours of sleep.  Seems like I’m running after time.  Just like that, the days are marching past me.

I am overwhelmed as soon as I shifted my eyes away from God and focused on this world.  I am downcast as soon as I turned my back to His Word and embraced the world.

Last night brought me so much consolation.  His Word that is truly alive and active and accomplishes its purpose.

PSALM 27

[Of David] Yahweh is my light and my salvation, whom should I fear? Yahweh is the fortress of my life, whom should I dread?  When the wicked advance against me to eat me up, they, my opponents, my enemies, are the ones who stumble and fall. Though an army pitch camp against me, my heart will not fear, though war break out against me, my trust will never be shaken.  One thing I ask of Yahweh, one thing I seek: to dwell in Yahweh’s house all the days of my life, to enjoy the sweetness of Yahweh, to seek out his temple.  For he hides me away under his roof on the day of evil, he folds me in the recesses of his tent, sets me high on a rock.

Now my head is held high above the enemies who surround me; in his tent I will offer sacrifices of acclaim. I will sing, I will make music for Yahweh.  Yahweh, hear my voice as I cry, pity me, answer me!

Of you my heart has said, ‘Seek his face!‘ Your face, Yahweh, I seek;  do not turn away from me. Do not thrust aside your servant in anger, without you I am helpless. Never leave me, never forsake me, God, my Saviour.  Though my father and mother forsake me, Yahweh will gather me up.

Yahweh, teach me your way, lead me on the path of integrity because of my enemies; do not abandon me to the will of my foes — false witnesses have risen against me, and are breathing out violence.  This I believe: I shall see the goodness of Yahweh, in the land of the living.  Put your hope in Yahweh, be strong, let your heart be bold, put your hope in Yahweh.

 

When we take our time and delay before acting, that can be prudent and wise, but then that can also be plain laziness.  When we consider something over and over, that can be prudent and wise, but then that can also be indecisiveness.  When we hold our tongue when insulted, that can be prudent and wise, but then can also be cowardice in disguise.  The reason behind our actions, the state of our hearts when we decide, is the true indication of wisdom and prudence.

Who is the prudent man?  He is cautious, shows discretion, has discernment, and makes sound judgement.  He does not delay for the sake of delaying or think long because he cannot decide but he is tactful in his considerations, decides with discernment and considers not only the now but what his action or inaction can lead to.

Prudence cannot be without wisdom and vice versa.  In fact, in Proverbs 8:12 (NIV) Continue reading

These are the Moments

Lent. Easter. Missions. Election.

Each moment went by, and I’m left to ponder on what I took from each one.  Have I been repentant enough during Lent?  Was I victorious in Easter?  Have I given enough in our Sunday missions?  Did I vote wisely in the election?  What’s next?

Sometimes, we go through life watching moments pass us by.  We live in the moment yet we forget afterwards. And I do not want that.  I want to always have something to go back to and remind me of how it was, whether it was good or bad.  If it was bad, it’s a reminder to change and make it better the next time around.  If it was good, it’s a reminder of victory, a motivation to do better and an encouragement in times of doubt.

I hope we go through life aware and alive, not living like zombies going from one gesture to another, moment to moment, without investing anything and taking anything from it.  Whether we grieve or celebrate, falter or winning, may we always see God’s goodness and faithfulness in every moment we go through.  After all, our lives are made of these moments.

Hello 2016!

Hello 2016!

It’s been a quiet second half of 2015 for me here at wordpress.  A lot has happened towards the end of 2015, all in God’s timing and grace.

I started learning and practicing brush calligraphy or modern calligraphy with the discovery of using those amazing brush pens.  And it was truly a grace and a gift that I can use that new hobby and passion in lettering/writing to share the good news to people via my instagram account @djletters.  The instagram account started off as my “shop” account which later turned into my lettering account. (:  Hope to see you there! My shop account: @shop_pixiesnstardust

Then at work, what I have been praying for, God delivered in His own time and His own ways.  Never had I imagined that it could end like this but it ended really amazing and beautiful.  Truly, His thoughts and His ways are not ours and He knows BEST – taking care of each sheep in His flock, not letting a sparrow fall without His knowing.  TRULY AMAZING FATHER! (: I may be out of job in a few days but He has secured me for the days to come and opened new doors and ways for me.  As the reading from Isaiah today greeted me declared:

See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland. – Isaiah 43:19 NIV

Now I’ll be getting more free time than I used to and I am praying that I will be able to use them properly – for the fundraising for World Youth Day this coming July, for practicing and using my passions – lettering & writing – for His glory and for earning income and for the important matters in life.  Truly 2015 has pushed me, led me and shown me how to walk by faith and not by sight and I pray that He will sustain me to do that this year as well.  Prayers and desires in my heart I lift up to the Lord and though some of them seem impossible, I hold on to His faithfulness and His great ability to work in the impossibles of my life.

HAVE A WONDERFUL AND BLESSED 2016 EVERYONE!!!

Been A While

Sometimes you just want to tell someone what has been happening, or write it down and hopefully someone will be interested to read it.  But then again, nah!  I don’t want to bore you with my life story. 😛

I’ve discovered Easter, I still walk in valleys at times, and desert on other times, yet I know very well my God is with me, always with me.  And busy months followed Holy Week – Mission Sundays, weddings after weddings – but the most important event, I must say, would have to be the moment God told me that the hour has come and my salvation is nearer than thought of – this is in relation to the work I’m in for 12 years now.  Few years back, I prayed hard for a decision I am trying to make and God gave me the word – to wait for harvest time.  Just few months back, after being persecuted yet again in this job that I’m in, God gave me consoling words one after the other, day after day, capped off with the verse from Romans.  So now I am looking forward to God’s fulfillment of this promise. 🙂

And I ask, whoever will come to read this, to also pray for me and for the next step I will be needing to make – to entrust my future to God.  And if it is not too much to ask, kindly include us in your prayers so we can all make it to Krakow next year for the World Youth Day! 🙂  THANK YOU!

Listen to me, you descendants of Jacob, all the remnant of the people of Israel, you whom I have upheld since your birth, and have carried you since you were born.  Even to your old age and gray hairs I am He, I am He who will sustain you.  I have made you and I will carry you; I will sustain you and I will rescue you. (Isaiah 46:3-4)

YOLO, YODO and YoCaLiFo! :D

When you say YOLO, I hope you realize that YODO, too.  You only live once, you only die once.  I hope you reflect on that before you do reckless stuff.  I hope you understand that time wasted, money spent and words spoken can never be taken back, and that the injuries you have caused yourself and other people may heal but scars don’t go away.  I hope you see that for every action there is a reaction that reverts back to you – some call it karma, I’d like to think they’re consequences for our actions or failure to act, all the same.  YOLO and YODO must not paralyze us or lead us to be reckless, it must make us prudent and discerning and make us see the things that truly matter in our lives: time – spend them well; people – love them well; things – use them well; talent – share them and bear fruits that will last; and life – we only have one with this body, let us live it well so as to earn the eternal one.  Cos you know, there is a YOU CAN LIVE FOREVER (YoCaLiFo).  It’s never too late to begin investing on eternity now.

Psalm 90:12
So teach us to number our days, that we may get us a heart of wisdom.

Hebrew 9:27-28
And just as it is appointed for [all] men once to die, and after that the [certain] judgment, Even so it is that Christ, having been offered to take upon Himself and bear as a burden the sins of many once and once for all, will appear a second time, not to carry any burden of sin nor to deal with sin, but to bring to full salvation those who are [eagerly, constantly, and patiently] waiting for and expecting Him.

Romans 6:23
For the wages which sin pays is death, but the [bountiful] free gift of God is eternal life through (in union with) Jesus Christ our Lord.

What Is It To Be Light?

To be hope.
As light at the end of a dark tunnel signifies an end of the dark claustrophobic journey.

To be life.
As light to a soil brings life to a seed buried in the ground.

To be joy.
As light brings smiles after a gloomy day.

To be truth.
As light exposes what the dark conceals.

To shine.
As light cannot be hidden, it is by nature made to shine as far as its might can take it.

11.26.13 21:39

“I, the Lord, have called you in righteousness; I will take hold of your hand. I will keep you and will make you to be a covenant for the people and a light for the Gentiles,

Isaiah 42:6 NIV

Why We Share?

Sometimes, we find ourselves divulging too much of our thoughts and feelings to certain people, for reasons we try to justify – seeking advices, looking for reassurances or validations, wanting to be heard, or just simply we want to unload some stuff off our chests.  Whatever the reason, sharing does make the load double or half.  Mathematically it is something not possible… either sharing is a multiplier or a divider but it can never be both.  That is why, you know, math cannot explain ALL things in life.  So, I hope they cut down all the years in math that, as students, we took! Well, unless you can prove to me that if I share 1 with 2 I can get a result of 2 and sometimes 0.5 when sharing, mathematically, is dividing something for others.  I’m not here to prove math is useless, I’m just entertaining myself with this idea that ha-ha, math does not have the answer! 😛

What I’m really trying to point out is, how wonderful and amazing sharing does to a person that it puzzles me why some people would still choose not to.  Share your joys, they double.  Share your sorrows, they decrease if not disappear.  When you feel God loves you and you are overwhelmed with this love, share it.  When you feel you are in a trial and you are overwhelmed as well, share it!  That is the magical equation of sharing. (:  Share the good stuff, we feel good.  Share the bad stuff, the burden lightens.

If we’re not yet in the habit of sharing, start small.  Start with a candy, share a thought that makes you happy, or share a concern you have.  In my experience, what good vibes you receive afterwards.

PS. Don’t expect when you share.  Just, share.  And let God work on your heart and your situation. (:  The real subject of sharing is you.  The real benefactor when you share is yourself.  So when you think about it, if you love yourself, you’ll share yourself more!

Exile for the 2nd Time

Having this theme, Exile, for the second time makes me appreciate it even more.  To have God’s Word laid out in front of me is such a treasure.  If the first time I swam in it, this time I’m diving in to it.  There is so much more to reveal, to know, to proclaim, and so much glory found in His Works, His Plans.

Lord, sustain me, sustain us! Cos, we can become tired and then lazy to move after a day’s work… sustain us to move our butts, lift up that book, the Bible and the pen, and read into Your message.  And prepare us, the group, for all that You are going to reveal in this theme.

Confession: I am struggling to keep my eyes open as of this writing… so my mind’s debating whether lunch break is for nap time or reading. 😛

A Happy Birthday to Me (:

No candle to blow (but we got a yummy moist choco cake from Conti’s it was heavenly and sinful at the same time!!), no gifts to tear open, no party hats, no sumptuous dinner but it didn’t make it less special. It went by like my previous days… another blessed day. (: Aside from the SMS alert I get from time to time, Thursday, June 20, went by like what a normal Thursday would be for me – go to work, pick up sister after work, and cold dinner. Okay, honestly, I have this nagging scene in my head of me eating cold dinner with only my sister and it seems to want to make me feel self-pity.  Maybe last year I would, but this time I don’t because that’s how it’s always been every Thursday and Friday night, cold dinner for us since we get home later than everyone else, nothing new, nothing to fret about, all’s well. We got edible and healthy food on the table and that’s what matters to me! ((: I’m just always glad to be home after a long day at work. 😛

So it was my birthday, and society dictates that one should be made to feel extra-special and be showered with attention on his/her birthday or that there should be a birthday treat or a party, even a birthday holiday. Nothing wrong with that, nothing bad about that, I like to have those – but the absence of them doesn’t make my birthday any less special. Gone were the days where I envision surprises for me each year on my birthday, which never came (Friends, I am still undecided whether I will be happy about that… hahaha).  Don’t get me wrong, I STILL LOVE SURPRISES! *hint hint* just that I will not be sulking or feeling bad if I don’t get one on my birthday, only that. (:  Because right now, I am overly grateful, God has surprised me more than I could have asked for, every day! And I feel loved and special, every day! Every day I wasn’t living up to God’s standard, I struggle (especially when I am behind the wheel, my goodness! Horns & tail out! Yun fork na lang kulang!!! And I thank God He never permitted me to have the fork, the damage it could have done!.).  Yet every single day, He looks after me, guides me, embraces me, loves me. The extra attention, the extra time from people who greeted me, they were greatly appreciated and were bonuses to an already blessed life. ♥

I will have to especially thank and mention a very dear friend, for asking me about my birthday wish, you were the only one who did!!! and for doing more than just greet me but went the extra effort to have a conversation with me… Gino!!! thank you… (:  We all know how busy you can get AND you remembered before the day ended! 😛

Well, I have to correct myself, having that extra time and attention from people that matter does make it feel a little more special. 😀

Shifting Focus

Cos really, it’s not Brazil that is the goal – it’s the maturing of my faith.  It’s not getting on that plane and arriving there – it’s the journey from the moment of yes to the moment of least resistance, total surrender and acceptance of His will… so I won’t let this monster of “I want to go to Rio” eat me up again and derail me from seeing the real, bigger picture.  Yes, God said I should be clear with my destination – destination = goal and it is every Christian’s goal to run the race and win the prize that is – heaven. (:

What The Lily Taught Me

Last Wednesday, I got a Stargazer from the flower market on my way to work.  It’s a flower I’ve always wanted to have beside me, cos of it’s wonderful color and fragrance.  Little did I know I’d be reminded so much by this lily.  More than just appreciating how lovely they are and how nice they smell, they reminded me of life’s brevity, God’s glory, God’s providence, and His amazing grace.

As I see a bud opens up, I’m reminded of Matthew 6:28-31.  Why worry?  See the beautiful flowers in the field, even in the short span of their life, how pretty the Lord has dressed them without them toiling that even Solomon was never dressed as lovely as them.   How much more, then, that God will provide for us?  It also showed me how these fragile creatures never hold back in showing off their beauty to bring glory to their Maker.

Today, one of the lily has withered and it reminded me of life’s brevity; that beauty is fleeting, what is important is to praise God (Proverbs 31:30); of God’s faithfulness in the frailty of this life (Isaiah 40:8);  and the will of the Lord. (James 4:13-16).

It is in the little things, even the tiny flower that springs up from a crack in the pavement, that teaches us the greatest lessons.  Often, it is in the things we take for granted.  So always keep your eyes, ears and heart open, cos our Father is always speaking to us. (:

Repost: Morning Glory @ Donsol Sorsogon (:

Remembered this blog post of a MORNING GLORY because of the developments with the Stargazer Lily.  (: Thought I’d share this again, cos really, seeing the brevity of a flower’s life yet how beautiful they are reminds us how amazing our God is! (:

Beautifully opening your eyes to the day
Kissing the morning dews with the beauty of your face
The sun rises in the East while you shine your best
You know that life’s short and you don’t bloom anything less
When the sun moves west and the day’s about to end
Your colors start to fade, and with grace, slowly you bend
You’ve brought glory to our Creator, you’ve done your part well
Proved that a day is always enough time for one to be his best

-debi-

Photo taken: Donsol, Sorsogon. April 2006.

A Memorable Moment

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Got to work finding the bud that was yesterday is slowly opening up. And today, it’s slowly unfolding its petals. So lovely, and I’m loving the scent more and more.

Thank You so much Lord for this wonderful gift of flowers.

And it also reminds me of Matthew6:28. Look at the lilies of the field. They do not work or spin yet Solomon in a his splendor was not dressed like them.

Don’t Stop

No one can have it all figured out. But it doesn’t mean you have to give up with life’s mysteries and stop your yearning to understand.

Realizing leads to understanding which leads to actions that are geared towards improving your situation. Don’t stop looking for answers, for the missing pieces in your life’s puzzle, they are all out there just waiting to be discovered.

The best place to start your search is in the stillness of your heart. In the quiet, ask, seek, and you shall find. In solitude emerges self-discoveries that are vital to self-improvement. With the hustle and bustle of our world, it is a struggle to find that moment of quiet. Take the time, find the place.

I still have a long way to go as I am one who is easily and constantly distracted. Discipline. If ever you question why we need to spend so many years in school studying different stuffs that most won’t be used by us in the future, it’s all about discipline and perseverance. And these are what I need to keep myself from being distracted with the unnecessary. That also made me realize, the decade of schooling wasn’t a waste of years after all. (:

Bottomline: Don’t stop… Searching, asking, looking, finding answers, believing, praying, trusting. Don’t stop. It may take a while, maybe longer, whatever circumstance, wherever you may be right now, don’t stop.

Cultivate The Seed Planted In You

I’m reading this book by Francis J. Kong entitled “Just When You Think You Can’t Do It… Do it!”  It’s a compilation of his essays.  Aside from getting this book at a super price-off (20 pesos for a 560pesos book, hardbound!), I’m loving his essays!  Inspiring, encouraging and above all, a constant reminder of how God works in our lives.

At one he talked about a musician, actually he talked a lot about musicians – their passion, their discipline, their perseverance, and how they value their God-given talent (in spite of their situation) and use it to bring glory to our Lord.  It made me think about my own God-given talent.

It can be hard to know which is which because we often confuse the want-to-be’s with the talent that we really have, and it doesn’t help when you feel talentless at all, because you think talent is just about singing, playing an instrument, acting, drawing or painting.  Talent is anything that you are good with; and with discipline, practice, perseverance and the right heart and attitude, you can excel in.  It can be in public speaking, in academics, in understanding people, in counseling, in writing, in hair-dressing, in sewing, in cooking, in baking, in interacting with children, in teaching, the field is soooo wide we all have our own space and mark to make.  The sad thing is, not everyone of us realizes that, and not everyone of us aim for it.  And some even see their God-given talent as a burden, as a job.  We seem to want what others already have and neglect the talent-seed planted by God in us.

It’s about time we know what we’re made of, know what we’re capable of, cultivate our God-given talent and use it to glorify our Lord.

Because of what I got to read last night, I am in the process of once and for all determining where I can excel and to work on it. (:  Writing is sure to be in the list.  Daydreaming?  Will that be counted?  And i really have to take playing the guitar seriously, no more shortcuts, as it is an offering and service for our Lord.  Go!  Fighto-o!

To Look Good and Feel Good

While beauty is in the eye of the beholder, real beauty is what you feel inside and what radiates outward. It’s not the clothes we wear or our hairstyle or makeup, but the smile we project, the twinkle in our eyes, the warmth of our presence and the glow in our faces. And only when we have Christ in us, when we let the Spirit fill us, when we accept the graces and let them overflow, do we achieve such beauty. It is, for me, the most beautiful of the beautiful’s. To feel and look good, start within, call on the Lord, listen to Him, and let His love for you overflow.

Thank You Lord. Life in this world has wonderful fairy tale stories and endings because of Your love. Reality is real, but You and Your love overcome what most people accept as reality. The world may be harsh and cruel and reality bites hard, yet You let Your people shine as Your love overflows and You have conquered the world.

All is Fun That Ends in Laughter

Laughter.  Not only the best medicine.  Not only music to the ears.  Laughter, for me, is my lifeline.  As long as I can laugh, I am alive, I will sure to live on.  To laugh is not insanity or craziness, it’s my outlet.  As long as I can find something to laugh about – my boo-boo’s, funny stories, corny jokes, amusing events – I know that my life is worth-living.

God loves a cheerful giver.  And I believe He also loves the person who can laugh about trials, not because it’s funny or he’s trying to get away with it by laughing, but because he lifted it up to Him and laugh at how great and wonderful God’s sense of humor is and trusting He will surely deliver.

Haunted by a sin, trapped by a fear, one need only to pray, to call on God, to rejoice in Him and watch how wonderful things turn out.  And the result, you’ll laugh about it – how eaten up you’ve been by your sins and fears, how you’ve forgotten you have a BIG GOD who is ALWAYS in control and how you’ve stressed yourself, growing wrinkles by thinking too much and wallowing in your problems.

Laugh.  Laughter normally won’t solve the problem, but it gives your life a push, it makes you feel life is good after all, and it makes you feel good inside.  From there, shifting your focus from your situation and lightening up a bit, you will view yourself better, and find it in your heart the strength to keep going.  Because, after all, all is well that ends well and all is fun that ends in laughter.